Take me away

Sometimes I just wonder why I was born in this family.

Not because of my parents.

But because of my brother.

I know this is gonna be another pointless rant but really,

I don't even know anymore.

I love my mum and I love my dad.

And I love my brother too.

But now,

I just want to leave this house and get away from him.

I just need time away from all his crap.

Like, I know how everyone says that you're lucky if you have a sibling.

I do feel lucky sometimes. 

But the past few months,

having a sibling felt worse than feeling lonely.

All I get is complained about

having to deal with his lame complaints and excuses.

I know it's not his responsibility to fetch me around and all.

But it's not like I force him.

It's not like my parents force him.

I cant even.

Just.

No. 

And like,

he doesn't have to complain to everyone about how fetching me to tuitions and stuff is a burden.

Like.

IF I HAD MY OWN DRIVING LICENSE,

YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO OK.

And like.

If I had a choice whether to drive myself or let him drive me,

i'd drive myself, honestly.

And if i had a choice to live with my family + him or live alone far, far away,

i'd rather live alone.

And like, i've been trying to be nice to him.

And all the while,

what do I get?

All his shit and excuses.

Like you're freaking 19.

Grow up.

I can't wait till I leave.

Or he leaves. 

Or I just die.
Whatever.

I don't even want to have anything to do with him.